Wednesday, July 25, 2007

It's my last full day here in vacation land. (sigh) I purposefully left my agenda open in order to make myself be still. I had no where to be...nothing to do. I just wanted to "be."

For some reason on this trip, stillness is just not coming easy. Oh sure, I've had hours of sitting by the pool, shopping at the malls, afternoon naps, and basking in the wonders of Starbucks. I'm guessing that all of that has to count for something, right?

But stillness?...I don't think so.

When I turn everything off and try to tune the world out, I can't. I am distracted and restless. Daydreaming and wandering. I haven't really been able to think a lot, much less write. (Even though I just read the other day in the Oprah magazine that if you want to be a good writer, you must write something everyday. --There goes those aspirations!)

Maybe this is all okay? Maybe this is exactly what I needed? Who knows?! I guess only time will tell.

Someday I hope to be like that verse in the Psalms that says, "like a weened child, is my soul within You." That is my aspiration...my picture of "stillness." To be able to sit in His presence, not needing or wanting for anything. Not looking around or thinking about what comes next. Just being.

Maybe someday I'll get there.
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2 comments:

Lindsay Blake said...

i know the thought that i am about to write is not the main point of your blog but sometimes randomness suits the moment, so here it goes: it's true, writing everyday leads to great writers. i am have read a book called Writing About Your Life and am in the midst of reading a book called On Writing Well. They are by the same author and in both he emphasizes the importance of not only writing every day but writing at the same time every day. no matter how much writers block you have. i'm trying. my times of writing usually come during work when it's slow, which isn't always consistant since it is work but i do my best. unfortunately i don't have wireless where i am living at the moment so my notebook is the only one who ever really reads my work anymore. try writing everyday, even if it never gets on your blog or in a magazine. at the end of your life you can put it together for your kids or the next generation. you have something to say... i know it! anyways, there you have it.

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Anonymous said...

Everyday...really...wow! Well, i think you do good to do what you do! And what you do write is great! I see the traits of a someday professional writer in you! :) I love your blog and I find myself talking about this or that from your blog and saying how great of a blogger you are to people all the time!! :)

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