"It's been a long December and there's reason to believe
maybe this year will be better than the last."
~Counting Crows, "A Long December"
It's December 31, 2006. This time last year I was claiming 2006 as "The Year of Clarity." It's funny what hindsight will teach you.
If I could have known what was to come, I probably would have claimed 2006 as "The Year of the Rollercoaster." But I didn't know. I guess we never really do. And that's the amazing thing. I look back now and think of the uncertainty, doubt, frustration, joy, hopefulness, restlessness, sadness, elation, and all the other things that I experienced in 2006 and I just think, "wow." I don't think there's ever been a time in my life when I've been more up and down. I questioned when the "year of clarity" would actually begin and just like the people who wandered in the desert so long ago, I continued wandering...often missing the clarity and provision in each new day. Boy, I have a lot to learn!
Now I find myself on the cusp of 2007 and I finally feel as though I've gained some clarity. And when I say "clarity" I don't mean: this is what your life is going to look like until you take your last breath. But "clarity" in the sense that, I know I'm right where I'm supposed to be...no matter what rollercoasters I have to ride.
Of course my mind races to my new work...life in this place...personal growth, etc. and I'm struck with the fact that I'm definitely in over my head. Then again, maybe that's all the clarity I need?
So thank you, Father, for "The Year of Wandering" in 2005 and "The Year of Clarity" in 2006.
"What will this year's theme be?," you ask. Oh, I'm not really sure. But there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last.
Happy 2007!!!
maybe this year will be better than the last."
~Counting Crows, "A Long December"
If I could have known what was to come, I probably would have claimed 2006 as "The Year of the Rollercoaster." But I didn't know. I guess we never really do. And that's the amazing thing. I look back now and think of the uncertainty, doubt, frustration, joy, hopefulness, restlessness, sadness, elation, and all the other things that I experienced in 2006 and I just think, "wow." I don't think there's ever been a time in my life when I've been more up and down. I questioned when the "year of clarity" would actually begin and just like the people who wandered in the desert so long ago, I continued wandering...often missing the clarity and provision in each new day. Boy, I have a lot to learn!
Now I find myself on the cusp of 2007 and I finally feel as though I've gained some clarity. And when I say "clarity" I don't mean: this is what your life is going to look like until you take your last breath. But "clarity" in the sense that, I know I'm right where I'm supposed to be...no matter what rollercoasters I have to ride.
Of course my mind races to my new work...life in this place...personal growth, etc. and I'm struck with the fact that I'm definitely in over my head. Then again, maybe that's all the clarity I need?
So thank you, Father, for "The Year of Wandering" in 2005 and "The Year of Clarity" in 2006.
"What will this year's theme be?," you ask. Oh, I'm not really sure. But there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last.
Happy 2007!!!
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