"God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience,
but shouts in our pains:
it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."
~ C. S. Lewis, "The Problem of Pain"
but shouts in our pains:
it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."
~ C. S. Lewis, "The Problem of Pain"
Silence....
I've heard a lot of it lately.
And it is not a result of my 3 day retreat. (In fact, I went to the sea specifically to hear.) Yet, in my limited perspective, that's been God's response. Oh sure, I know He's been there. I haven't doubted His presence. I've just been wondering when I was going to get some answers. (And by answers, I mean, the answers I have all figured out in my head and am just waiting for Him to come through with, "answers.")
But He doesn't seem to be working that way. And so I find myself waiting. Waiting and watching and wondering what in the world He's up to.
And just when I've run out of words or ideas to help Him out (:-), He shows up. Not so much with "answers," but with Himself.
As I walked around the track tonight, He was there.
I saw Him in the sun's rays that pierced through the passing storm clouds, illuminating the sky. And as Coldplay's "Fix You" crescendoed into my ears, I realized it wasn't so much about the "answers"after all. It's about "Him."
Yesterday's thought on my "Utmost for His Highest" calendar said this:
Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life--gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and graciously uncertain how He will come in--but you can be certain that He will come. Remain faithful to Him.
Lord, grant me that gracious uncertainty.
I've heard a lot of it lately.
And it is not a result of my 3 day retreat. (In fact, I went to the sea specifically to hear.) Yet, in my limited perspective, that's been God's response. Oh sure, I know He's been there. I haven't doubted His presence. I've just been wondering when I was going to get some answers. (And by answers, I mean, the answers I have all figured out in my head and am just waiting for Him to come through with, "answers.")
But He doesn't seem to be working that way. And so I find myself waiting. Waiting and watching and wondering what in the world He's up to.
And just when I've run out of words or ideas to help Him out (:-), He shows up. Not so much with "answers," but with Himself.
As I walked around the track tonight, He was there.
I saw Him in the sun's rays that pierced through the passing storm clouds, illuminating the sky. And as Coldplay's "Fix You" crescendoed into my ears, I realized it wasn't so much about the "answers"after all. It's about "Him."
Yesterday's thought on my "Utmost for His Highest" calendar said this:
Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life--gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and graciously uncertain how He will come in--but you can be certain that He will come. Remain faithful to Him.
Lord, grant me that gracious uncertainty.
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